田原俊彦 「抱きしめてTONIGHT」(Please hold me tonight by Toshi)

I absolutely loved Toshi when I was a teenager.. and I still do.. If I can dance like him, maybe you will ask me out on a date?

Yamamoto Youichi

This one can't sing or dance.. but cute enough to be included in my blog
"Seductive Angel(yuuwaku angel)" by Yamamoto Youichi

More cute asian boys...

100% possible... soooo ka mo ne

Shonentai

This one is for those who like cute asian boys, who can sing and dance:

Sweet Loneliness..

Far away, we were in the summer days
Full of dreams
Do you rememeber, lu la la
Every time, you remind me of happiness
Fill my heart with sweet loneliness....

Memories, take me to old melodies
Trembling love
I will be still in your heart
Oh la la, thousand nights pass over the milky way
Close my eyes, with sweet loneliness

Is this dangerous?

Drying my hair, I gave a cute white boy at the gym a wink.. is this dangerous?

My favorite dessert - Omochi ice cream

Bought 2 kinds of Omochi ice cream today when I was doing grocery shopping, sesame and dark chocolate... hmm.. yum..
Only good boys will have a bite of my omochi ice cream.. ARE YOU A GOOD BOY?

A present for your future

Started my new workout routine this week, let see how far I can push myself before Pride Day, which is last Sunday in June..

winning hearts and minds

being in the advertising industry for so many years, i've helped lots of advertisers/markets to win hearts and minds of the consumers, but for my personal life, i can't even win one person's heart and mind, and i only need one

そばにおいて by 岩崎宏美(Sobanioite by Hiromi)

Please let me just sit in the corner of your heart
I promise I will not bother you
You don't have to say any kind words to
Just stare at me, would that be ok?

If the depth of my love for you were to be tested
I would continue to sleep without breathing
(so I would not disturb you)
Because my soul would not survive
Without having you beside me

If I became the luggage of your heart
You could just throw me to the back
I would just follow you quietly without making any noise
even if you didn't turn around to look at me

If my love for you became too heavy
It would be ok for me to cut through my chest
and give up my life for you
It is because I only live for you
I would continue to sleep without breathing (so I would not disturb you)
Because my soul would not survive
Without having you beside me


あなたの心の　かた隅でもいいの
そばにおいて　邪魔は決してしないわ
優しい言葉を　かけてくれなくても
見つめるだけならば　いいでしょう

愛の深さが　測れるものならば
息を止めたまま　眠り続けて死んでも　
かまわない
私の魂は　あなたなしでは生きては　ゆけないから
あなた　そばにおいて　そばにおいて

あなたの心の　荷物になるのなら
そっと後ろ　歩くだけでもいいの
ふりむかなくても　背中が見えてれば
声かけて　呼んだりしないわ
愛のわがままが　それでも重いなら
胸を切りさいて　この生命（いのち）さえすてても　かまわない
私の魂は　あなたの為に生まれたものだから
息を止めたまま　眠り続けて死んでも　かまわない
私の魂は　あなたなしでは生きては　ゆけないから
あなた　そばにおいて　
そばにおいて　そばにおいて

Shiawase desuka?

No, not at all

天各一方 by 曾路得(miles apart by Ruth Tsang)

My favourite CantonPop in the 80's by Ruth Tsang..
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獨白︰
今日你同我天各一方　
你有你o既生活
我繼續我o既忙碌　
但假如有一日
我地真係o系路上面偶然咁撞倒
我地會點o下頭　問候一o下
然後已經唔知講咩好
因為你會發現我已經改變
正如我可能唔再認識你
但係咁其實又有咩關係呢
我只係知道　o系呢一剎那 我係想念你
＊誰令我能情深一片　
令我輕柔如水清澈
令我心靈回復恬靜　
令我拋棄內心牽掛
重拾往年純潔美夢　
讓我心靈重得安慰
讓我安躺月下
獨白︰
其實　乜o野先至係真實而恆久o既呢
或者我應該就咁保存住呢一份渴望希冀
俾我相信世上有一幸福　垂手可得
又永遠係掌握之外
有時　激情捉o系手裡面會化為灰燼
反而藏o系心底　可以歷久常新
貪求思慕只因癡　
一切眼淚 思憶都係徒然
重唱　＊

English translation(first attempt, the translated text is not quite there yet,please let me know if I have made any errors, I am having a really tough time even understanding the essence of several sentences in Chinese, will fix them in the next several days, please bear with me for now):

We now live in different parts of the world
You have your own way of life
I continue with my busy schedules
If some day, we were to run into each other on the street
We would nod our heads, say hi to each other
Would we even know what else to say to each other next?
That’s because you would notice I’d have changed
Similarly, I would no longer know you

But, what difference would it make?
All I know, at this moment, I am missing you..

Who was it that made me fall madly in love with
Let me be gentle and tranquile like water
Gave my soul a sense of peacefulness
Helped me forget all the worries
Helped me chase the dreams that were young and genuine
Helped my spirit find comfort again
So I’d be able to rest quietly under the moon

So, what is real and permanent?
Maybe, we should just hold on to our desire and wishes
have faith that Happiness can be had anywhere, any time
Rather than grasping on to our passion, so it will burst into ashes
Maybe, we are better off burying it deep inside our hearts,
So it will stay there forever, always new and fresh
Is missing and longing for someone you once loved a greed?
All my tears and memories are in vain…

梅艷芳 Anita Mui - 胭脂扣

誓 言 幻 作 煙 雲 字
費 盡 千 般 心 思
情 像 火 灼 般 熱
怎 燒 一 生 一 世
延 續 不 容 易
負 情 是 你 的 名 字
錯 付 千 般 相 思
情 像 水 向 東 逝 去
痴 心 枉 傾 注
願 那 天 未 曾 遇

只 盼 相 依
那 管 見 盡 遺 憾 世 事
漸 老 芳 華
愛 火 未 滅 人 面 變 異
祈 求 在 那 天 重 遇
訴 盡 千 般 相 思
祈 望 不 再 辜 負 我
痴 心 的 關 注
人 被 愛 留 住
問 那 天 會 重 遇

不在乎天長地久..只在 乎曾經擁...

I remember seeing this TV commercial when I was living in Hong Kong.. the tagline says:
It doesn't matter if it is going to last forever, what matters is you can have it once..

張國榮+梅艷芳 - 緣份

If it's meant to be...

Anita Mui

Her first performance on TV in a singing contest.. passed away same year as my mom did..3 yrs ago.. due to cancer...

Touch touch touch me here!!

Touch!



Ai ga Hitoribocchi

100% soooo kamone(100% possible!) by shibugakitai

everyone loves mokkun.. he is on the right hand side of the video...

Go Blue!

A picture's worth a thousand words...

Pain doesn't last, Memories do..

3 yrs ago tonight, I was expecting a miracle...After coming home from the ICU and many visits to several funeral homes checking out the costs(in preparation for the worst case scenario), I received a call from the nurse..she had nothing new and positive to report and told me to expect the worst..

Before that day, I had never dealt with people at the funeral home before.. had absolutely no clue what the process was and how expensive it could be... my dad didn't want to go with me and my sister.. so this job ended up falling on me and my sister...that would have to be the lowest point in my life...that afternoon, both my sister and I just couldn't take it anymore.. ... my sister was so strong, but she finally broke down in tears... there was nothing i could do other than telling her.. "just let it out..it's ok to cry"...I was crying so much in those weeks that my eyes became very sore...I was exhausted.. I had not been to work for almost a month..

The next day, the doctor in charge of the ICU came to the waiting room and told us it would be only a matter of one or 2 hours left for her to live..she said if her heart stopped, she would not try to bring her back...it was very cruel of her to do that..she basically delivered that line without any emotion...I said to her what would it take for her to save my mom's life.. would you want me to be on my knees to beg you, I asked... and I did, but she showed no emotion and got on with other patients

I finally had permission to allow other relative members to come for a final visit... my aunt and uncle came and she told us to take a break and go grab some lunch...5 minutes later..there was an announcement over the speaker asking us to go back to the ICU immediately..."She left...she is with God now...she left very peacfully"....Later that day.. my aunt said to me, now the love you have, give it to the next person you meet in your life

Today, I was in meeting with clients all day...it kept me busy so I didnt have to think(I only had to focus on selling toothpaste, denture cream, upset stomach remedies, etc)...I kept myself occupied for the rest of the afternoon and evening coz I didn't want to think...I just wanted to feel numb..wishing it would just go away... sister left me a voice mail asking me if I would like to have dinner tomorrow night as it would be mom's 3rd yr anniversary....I said not really initially even I really wanted to...I didnt want to as it would just bring back alot of painful memories...but I wanted to as I needed to feel I still had a family..

"Pain doesn't last, Memories do"..but why does it still hurt?

1995 last mini concert

雨だれ(Raindrop) by Naoko

1 minute and 19 seconds... that's all you need to tell people you are a good singer..



ひとり 雨だれは 淋し過ぎて
あなた 呼び出したりしてみたの
ふたりに傘がひとつ
冬の街を はしゃぐ風のように
寒くはないかと気遣う あなたの
さりげない仕草に 気持ちが ときめく
淋しがりや同士 肩寄せ合って
伝え合うのよ 弾む恋の芽生え

2 people sharing an umbrella in the rain...how romantic...
rain in the forecast this week in toronto..

Simplicity is beauty

When you have a beautiful voice, you don't need fancy background music. A basic electronic keyboard is good enough to create magic...


Half moon serenade... '91 in Hong Kong

Naoko + Jacky Chan -午夜吻別前(kiss before midnite) in Cantonese

I have decided to put the Japanese and Cantonese version side by side.. what do you think..

all I care about is you by Teresa Teng

Pics were taken in Toledo and Madrid, Spain from my trip last year...



If I had not met you
What would I be doing?
Leading an average life? Loving just an average guy?

Spending every day of my life with you
Colored by your love
We only live once
So even if I have to give up everything
I don't even care
As long as you are with me
Because you are the only person
I can fall in love with


If you no longer loved me
I would not have tomorrow
I would not be able to live on memories alone
Spending everyday of my life with you
Cuddling tenderly
even if I have to give up my life
It won't matter
As long as you are with me
Because you are the only person I can see
having a future with

Spending every day of my life with you
Colored by your love
We only live once
So even if I have to give up everything
I don't even care
As long as you are beside me
Because you are the only person
I can fall in love with

Happy Mother's Day

"If you could treasure your memories,you'll never be alone", she said(あれこれと思い出をたどったらいつの日もひとりではなかったと今更乍ら我侭な私に唇かんでいます)



KOSUMOSU (Cherry Blossom)By Kawai Naoko
Lyrics by : Masashi Sada
Composed by : Masashi Sada
Arranged by : Mitsuo Hagita

The pink autumn cherry blossom
is swaying gently in the autumn wind
My mother who became sentimental recently
makes a cough in the garden
Opening an album on the veranda
she talks about my childhood days
repeating the same story again and again
in a soft voice, as if she is talking to herself
On such a serene Indian summer day
your tenderness deeply touches my heart
To me who will be married the next day,
(my mother said) "Face hardship lightheartedly don't worry, laugh it off"
"If you could treasure your memories
you'll never be alone"(my mother said) to me who am still willful
while biting her lips
Lending a helping hand with my luggage
the atmosphere was initially cheerful
but my mother suddenly starts to tear
and repeatedly tells me to take care
I'll try to live to the fullest
so as to thank my mother
On such a serene Indian summer day
please let me be your child
for a little while longer


秋桜
淡紅の秋桜が秋の日の
何気ない陽溜りに揺れている
此頃　涙脆くなった母が
庭先でひとつ咳をする

縁側でアルバムを
開いては
私の幼い日の思い出を
何度も同じ話くりかえす
独言みたいに小さな声で
こんな小春日和の
穏やかな日は
あなたの優しさが
浸みて来る
明日嫁ぐ私に
苦労はしても
笑い話に時が変えるよ
心配いらないと笑った

あれこれと思い出をたどったら
いつの日もひとりでは
なかったと
今更乍ら我侭な私に
唇かんでいます
明日への荷造りに手を借りて
しばらくは楽し気にいたけれど
突然涙こぼし元気でと
何度も何度もくりかえす母
ありがとうの言葉をかみしめながら
生きてみます私なりに
こんな小春日和の穏やかな日は
もう少しあなたの子供で
いさせてください

傻女 by 陳慧嫻(Silly Girl by Priscilla Chan)

Tonight I have to face the loneliness again
Wearing your sweater, playing that old character once again
Letting the long sleeves hold me, watching the sky
Letting my lips touch the collar of your shirt
Joking about how I liked your scent
I hate to say that you and I, we are like a good movie that has already ended
All I can do is let your sweater play your character in this movie everyday
Sitting beside me in the evening
acknowledging me quietly
Let my skin touch yours
Let you have my body
Allow me to play that old character again
Allow me to act happily again
the main character in some beautiful story
the lover with whom you were chasing your dream
the lover who would not shed a tear
pretending I could play the role as your lover again
Will you ever understand why I put on your sweater in this lonely night
pretending I am close to you again?
Ha....

I like Chopin... Yoshie + Naoko

夢先案内人(Yumesaki Annainin) by Momoe & Akina

Watching sunrise, you turn around from time to time, giving me wink and kisses...ah...so sweet... but unfortunately, it is only a dream...

你想愛誰就愛誰(Love whoever you want to love) by 欧阳菲菲

曲:雷颂德 词:林夕 编:雷颂德歌 （歌词转自 音魁网 www.inkui.com）词
Yeah…… Wow Wow Wow
You never give it up
You never know

* Come On……
有些时候 妥协是一种艺术
有些时候 只是太快就满足
很多时候以为这是成熟 让美梦提早结束
我们没有甚么 才会追求甚么
做梦是最美丽的娱乐
命运不算甚么 终究得到甚么
越不可能越快乐
你想爱谁就爱谁 想的多美就多美
冒着风雪寻找最坚强的玫瑰
感动的流下眼泪 请做好准备　
没有爱不到的谁 没有流不完的泪　
向着黑夜寻找一个蓝色月亮　
你可能忽然体会 不可能的滋味
*　 Repeat *　

You never give it up　 Come On……　
You never give it up　

你想爱谁就爱谁 想的多美就多美　
冒着风雪寻找最坚强的玫瑰　
感动的流下眼泪 请做好准备　
没有爱不到的谁 没有流不完的泪　
向着黑夜寻找一个蓝色月亮　
你可能忽然体会 不可能的滋味　
Come On……　 You never give it up

Pics

My friend Scott said I looked slutty in shirtless pics, what do you think? Should I remove all of them?(I meant removing my pics, not another piece of clothing item)

My sister

Growing up, because of the age difference, I never really got along with my younger sister...

3 years ago tonight, I had a new perspective on her... how would you feel if on your birthday, instead of going out and celebrating, you had to stay in the ICU with someone you cared most, not knowing she only had seven more days to live....this was how my sister spent her birthday night when she turned 30...As it was during SAR's, the hospital would only allow one family member to accompany the patient(my late mother), my sister decided she would be there in case mom woke up or her condition improved...it was not an easy decision but she did not complain... throughout the night, every hour, she would give mom a massage on her hands and feet to make sure enough blood circulation...in the past 20 years, usually her birthday would fall on mother's day, so it would be me taking both my mom and sister out for dinner..they would tease me, saying I got off easy as I only needed to buy dinner once..

tonite, I had no one to take to nice restaurant..I came home early from work due to an all afternoon client's meeting in Oakville, I called my sister and apparently she had made plans with her friends..... If I were allowed to choose, I would rather buy them dinner every night....

"It's all over, we don't have to feel pain anymore, there is nothing that can hurt us as much from now on...." my sister said a week later..

(picture taken outside Asian Languages Library at UC Berkeley, a place where I used to spend my afternoon doing research)

Pull up

After having worked out for so many years, finally I was able to do pull up without any assistance, in fact, I was able to do multiple sets towards the end of my workout today..which actually made it even harder.. don't know why.. all of a sudden I just wanted to try.. so I didn't use the pull up station.. just walked up to the pull up bar, grabbed it(just like a gymnast), closed my eyes, focused, then I pulled.. wow, it was so easy...not sure where that strength came from.. in fact I tried that last weekend and I still couldn't do it....together with dipping, I can finally do both of these strength building exercises without any help...

(Picture taken at Clark Kerr Campus, dorm where I used to stay at UB Berkeley)

Ginch Gonch

Scott and Shaun, my best friends, bought me this new pair of underwear for special occasions, they said..

時の流れに身をまかせ(let time go by)Teresa Teng + Jackie Chan

Thanks to technology, even Teresa passed away over 10 years ago at 42, Jackie could still perform this duet with her... btw, Teresa and Jackie were rumoured to be lovers when Teresa was studying in San Fran..(sorry, the video must be confusing a lot of people, it is in Mandarin, but the original version is in Japanese, sung by Teresa too)




If I had not met you
What would I be doing?
Leading an average life? Loving just an average guy?

Spending every day of my life with you
Colored by your love
We only live once
So even if I have to give up everything
I don't even care
As long as you are with me
Because you are the only person
I can fall in love with


If you no longer loved me
I would not have tomorrow
I would not be able to live on memories alone
Spending everyday of my life with you
Cuddling tenderly
even if I have to give up my life
It won't matter
As long as you are with me
Because you are the only person I can see
having a future with

Spending every day of my life with you
Colored by your love
We only live once
So even if I have to give up everything
I don't even care
As long as you are beside me
Because you are the only person
I can fall in love with

もしもあなたと　会えずにいたら
私は何を　してたでしょうか
平凡だけど　誰かを愛し　
普通の暮らし　してたでしょうか
時の流れに　身をまかせ
あなたの色に　染められ
一度の人生　それさえ
捨てることも　かなわない
だから　お願い　そばに置いてね
今は　あなたしか　愛せない

もしも　あなたに　嫌われたなら
明日と言う日　なくしてしまうわ
約束なんか　いらないけれど
想い出だけじゃ　生きてゆけない
時の流れに　身をまかせ
あなたの胸に　寄り添い
きれいになれた　それだけで
いのちさえも　いらないわ
だから　お願い　そばに置いてね
今はあなたしか　見えないの
時の流れに　身をまかせ
あなたの色に　染められ
一度の人生　それさえ
捨てることも　かなわない
だから　お願い　そばに置いてね
今は　あなたしか　愛せない

Being able to love someone unconditionally...

How does one know he or she can love another person unconditionally? After my mom's death 3 years ago and my last relationship ended around the same time, I asked myself this question frequently...My aunt once said to me, "The energy you had when caring for your mother, now you can use that to love another person"

My mom passed away at 65....if I live as long as her, that means I have about 26 years left to find that special someone or him finding me....when I look back last 26 years, it wasn't that long ago... probably that was the time when I first started listening to Jpop... In fact, my introduction to Jpop was Judy Ongg's miserarete in 1979...

People sometimes said to me.. be thankful you are single, coz you are free to choose....but somehow, I don't think being single is really that special...well, I save money by not wasting it on dates that are not going anywhere, that's for sure....

New Job, new office

For those who come to my blog on a regular basis, you may wonder why I have not been keeping up with my journal..That's because I have been busy with my job search...I started my new job last Wednesday.. After having a major software company as my client at my former ad agency for almost 6 years, I think this new job would offer me the next challenge..This is my 16th year working in advertising, I was looking for something that would add diversity to my experience, also something that I would enjoy(I've had enough of B2B, gosh, so boring!).. I have worked on major packaged goods clients, telco, financial etc.. so there is really not a lot of categories left for me to choose from... but sometimes when one door closed, another would open.. instead of doing all the searching myself, I was offered the position as an Account Director running the Mini Cooper account(plus a few others)... it's like a dream comes true.. for the last several years, I have been thinking of getting some automotive category experience, and the only advertiser I really wanted to work on was Mini...Tomorrow is my first client meeting at Mini's head office in Canada, which is about an hr drive from Toronto...and there is one other thing.. I have to overcome the fear of driving on highway..so for the past several weeks, I solicited my sister and my ex to be my driving coaches... btw, the above pic is my new corner office(my new boss actually let me pick the one I wanted as there were a few empty offices, hehe)